My Struggle with Faith (Joseph Girzone) – Part 2.

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This may be a long series, there is so much to comment on, quote from, and evaluate from Joseph Girzone‘s book My Struggle with Faith, ohh well, lets dive into chapter 2 “Creation of the Universe.”

The essence of this chapter is Girzone’s struggle with deciding whether creation speaks to and necessitates the existence of a Creator. This is not so much an academic struggle, as a personal struggle. Girzone was not attempting so much to quell the scientific criticism against creation as to deal with his own questionings. Still, the chapter provides insightful commentary that is worth pondering for all.

Girzone seems to accept the idea that the earth evolved (pg. 14) but still sees this occurring under the guidance and through the creative action of God. As support for this controversial view (among Christians) he states, “God cannot contradict in revelation what He has placed in nature.” (pg. 15) He denotes the evidence for eohippus to horse as being essentially unassailable but then quavers a bit, indicating that too many gaps exist within the amphibian lines and reporting on Morgan’s experiments at Columbia University with fruit flies which failed to show significant genetic adaptation under a large quantity of induced environments and circumstances.

In the end, while Girzone cannot prove that there is a God he feels that, “As far as the mind is concerned, psychologically it can feel satisfied that God exists even though the technical evidence is not conclusive and points only to the necessity of God’s existence.” (pg. 17) He argues earlier (pg. 12) that even scientists are forced to rely upon faith – a point I would agree with (oops, bad grammar, ohh well).

Girzone sums up his evidence for the existence of God, “So, my own mantra is reduced to a simple observation. I know there is a God, because the world exists, and I know it is real, and not an illusion, because I perceive it with my senses and I can analyze it with my intelligence, which I also am conscious exists.” (pg. 18) Not an unreasonable argument, imho. Girzone then continues for the next three pages to relay several miraculous incidents he experienced during his lifetime – further evidence for the existence and involvement of the divine (pp. 19-21).

I am sure that some will be quick to point out the flaws and the weaknesses in these arguments – that Girzone was unable to prove the existence of God – but I fall upon the same defense Girzone seems to rely upon – none of us can prove our points, at some point we must rely upon faith in something (others, experience, revelation, perception, history, etc.) – and with Girzone, I side that the evidence points towards a Creator God.

My Struggle with Faith (Joseph Girzone) – Review Part 1.

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When I read books I take notes. Usually I take these notes on my computer – so that I can search through them at a later time – when I want them for something I am writing or a sermon I am preparing. When a book is especially filled with interesting or noteworthy material I end up taking a pen to it – b/c I am too impatient to write all the entries while reading into my computer…then I’ll go back later and put the notes into the computer (or at least so I tell myself…sometimes it doesn’t happen). On rare occasions there are books that are so filled with wisdom that I almost end up underlining the entire volume. Girzone’s book falls high on this scale.

Over a number of upcoming posts I’m going to delve piece by piece into Girzone’s My Struggle with Faith, an autobiographical and gently polemical explanation of his theological understanding. I want to take this as an opportunity to both laud the highpoints of the book as well as note some areas of disagreement which my personal theology reflects with Girzone, and specifically where those disagreements reflect the differences between Protestantism and Catholicism.

For those who are not familiar with Girzone, he was a Catholic priest who after retiring began writing books about a man named Joshua – a modern day Jesus – and how this man interacted with the church as well as the rest of the world. They are beautifully and powerfully written and enjoyed by both Protestants and Catholics.

Girzone writes his book in a somewhat unique unfolding manner that follows him through his personal ventures with faith and reveals bit by bit what he learned with age and struggle. As such, one feels much as a co-traveler throughout much of this extremely readable and yet profound book. Lets begin just with the introduction and opening chapter today…


Only two pages long rather than explain I will simply quote a key portion of this note:

“Belief itself is not simple. It is not a single conviction or idea. It is a complex network of convictions that subconsciously evolves over a lifetime into what becomes our philosophy of life, and the engine that drives us, and in the process transforms all our relationships with God and all God’s creatures.” (pg. xi)

Chapter 1. Is There a God?

Girzone shares how in childhood he had a deep and experiential faith and was a model follower of Christ. But as he progressed in age he found himself questioning:

“My problem was the guilt I felt in questioning what I had been taught. But then I began to realize that I was not being disloyal; I was just trying to understand. My next question was: Am I losing my faith? I knew that my faith was still strong, but I had a need to understand why I believed. And that did not mean that I was losing my faith.” (pg. 2)

He went off to seminary at the young age (to me) of fourteen and notes that during the first year experientially his relationship with God was amazing but that during his sophomore year, “I could no longer feel God’s presence. I could no longer feel the love of Jesus in Communion. My heart had turned cold and empty. I became depressed and frightened.” (pg. 3)

Girzone throughout this chapter reflects heavily upon the deadness of his emotional/experiential relationship with God – something which I can identify with during significant portions of my life…I sometimes ponder if I have been destined in part to repeated Dark Nights of the Soul (St. John of the Cross).

Girzone reports, “…it all left me cold…could not pray. It was a drudge. It was without feeling or comfort.” (pg. 3) I love how he reflects on Moses leading forth the Israelites from Egypt – so many hundreds of thousands of people – and how this was depressing rather than relieving to him. I have echoed this fear of success or calling in my own life.

He powerfully describes his continuing struggle on page 5, “At night I would slip down to the chapel and, in the darkness and emptiness, hope I would find God again. It didn’t happen. I just sat there dumb and broken. Gradually a deep depression drifted through my being like a heavy fog that settles on a mountainside and obliterates all reality of the village below. The spirit world was now deeply lost in that fog, and all the joy and comfort it used to bring me.” Haha, I apologize if I focus on this too much – but these passages struck such a resounding echo in my own life.

In the midst of all this Girzone never doubted that he was called to be a priest, even though at his ordination he was still suffering from doubts – more than ten years later! Yet Girzone also notes that all was not empty. While the feelings were not present the growth in knowledge and grace was present, “even though I no longer had the emotional sense of God’s presence, that presence was revealing itself in a much deeper way and at a higher level than mere emotion, as if God was leading me somewhere that was unfamiliar…” (pp. 6-7)

It is at this juncture that we get the first hints that Girzone will not be the ideal image of the religiously and politically conservative priest. He argues strongly against capital punishment and suggests it is worse than murder (pg. 7) and he begins for the first time to begin offering insight into the resolutions to some of his questions of faith – particularly how his observations of the complexity of nature and the reality of the universe inspired his belief in God. I think both arguments are fairly strong – and powerful when you read them in the context.

So far it is a great read – I recommend it. 🙂 I’ll unfold my perceptions as we work through the book – much as Girzone unfolded his – allowing the complete thought to be slowly unfurled.